not-so-superpowers

sometimes I feel invisible.
sometimes nothing feels right.
sometimes my bones ache
with the knowledge that
I’m not good enough.
sometimes this living
hurts me. sometimes my
x-ray vision shows me things
I’d rather not know.
sometimes my adamantium claws
carve up my own heart.
superfriends, save me
from the kryptonite
of my infinitely expanding
sadness.

run out

you’ve seen it
at least thrice now.
how and when
I run out of track. how my train
of thoughts just can’t
go any further. the spirit is willing
but the vessel is so weak.
I don’t want to
leave you, but I must retire.
when I’m off the rails for too long
everything stops
making sense,
myself most of all. even you
can’t help me sleep
when you’re reduced to a message
on a screen. the wind whistles
like a steam engine
around my little attic room.
stop the world, I gotta get off.
Morpheus – not to be confused with
his elder sister –
is calling my name.