a whole new world (of pain)

it’s been going on
for weeks now. possibly
even months. I’m deep
in denial, limping everywhere
and pretending
this is normal. I was supposed
to see the doctor several
weeks ago but I slept
through the appointment
and now I’m embarrassed
to call him back.
but it feels like
I’m walking on knives.
the worst is after
I have been sitting
or lying down, and I get up
again. the orthotics
don’t seem to help
at all. today I walked
a lot in flip flops and now
I’m practically incapacitated.
tell the sea witch
I’ll give back my legs.
they’re not worth it.